I have an emotional hangover.
The Sadness is Still
There is still a definite lingering sadness in my life and I am not sure what to do about it. I know that it is part S.A.D. but it is getting a little old. I think I have just come to accept that it is how things are now. I haven't gone one wee
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last by callingyou about 18 hours ago
“Are you saying I'm crazy, cause I am.” “All girls are crazy.” “Yes, there's just different types. Can you tell what mine is?” “Oh! Look at you, little guy. You missed it!” &l
last by callingyou 3 days ago
Columbus DAy
So, where to begin? A's car had to be fixed today so I picked him up. My idea was to go for late breakfast, so that's what we did. Conversation flowed pretty easily though at first I was pretty nervous and didn't talk all that much. When it was
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last by torrentdeheart 6 days ago
Heart not so Deep
When I dream it's not of her anymore, but it's still her spirit. It's kind of hard to explain but it's not her face or her body but the person still sort of has her persona. It's a pretty good metaphor for my outlook right now actually. I miss
last by wombat 13 days ago
Feels right
Another level unlocked with A. Things are great. We are beginning to connect on more levels. I'm a pretty open person, but in relationships I shield myself a lot. I find no reason to shield myself with him. I can be completely candid and he is so unders
last by callingyou 14 days ago
Good Pain
Ok, a little bit of brag time. I finished the half in 2 hours and 24 minutes!! It's not great for a half marathon but it is better than I thought I would do and considering everything that has happened lately between a head injury, a breakup, some dep
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last by callingyou 14 days ago
Trying to Still Push
This will be the first post from my phone, but I can feel my heart feeling edgy and sharp so it's time to get a little of this out. I am in the hotel, in the town, near the staring line of the race tomorrow and I'm feeling a little down. But with
last by torrentdeheart 25 days ago
Truth, Sacred, and Healthy Relationships
True colors always emerge. It's simply too difficult to mask what lies beneath. If what lies beneath is ugly, it can always be worked upon. I strongly believe that. Getting to know A is like peeling back the layers. It's simple. What you see
last by callingyou 22 days ago
The Numbers
It has been 4 weeks since the break up and some would say that is too long to still be feeling the way that I do, On Saturday I will run 13.1 miles and some would say that is too far. It will be 7 days since my last cigarette and some runn
The type of person you keep around.
I'm going to try to make this one quick. This week has been super stressful, and I've been trying not to whine about it. However, I just had anxiety building up more and more and more. Enter A… who proves himself yet again. He ask
last by callingyou 4 days ago
Seeing Psychosis Arrive Or an Enveloping Fog?
As much of a hell yesterday was I feel relatively normal today. A little grey around the edges but I think that is because I over slept, and the residual sadness still here. I decided to work from home today and get caught up on some other things in m
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last by callingyou 29 days ago
Mondays are an Emotional Bitch
What the hell!? I was supposed to be getting back on top this week. I don't know why Mondays are always so hard, but they are. Was it because I saw her coming out of the other side of the building when I was on my way back in from lunch? Was it beca
last by torrentdeheart 28 days ago
The Reformation of Me
Well, I was about to hop on and write a huge post about this weekend and about the coming week, but I spent so much time with everyone else's posts and replies I should really go to bed. This is a good sign though, I feel lighter and more willing to co
last by callingyou 30 days ago
Trials and Distances
My friend brought up the point, “Let's hope he doesn't have any side girls at school,” since A and I aren't official. I've said it before. I want A to see other girls. I want him to flirt. I want him to do whatever he needs to do. I
last by callingyou about 1 month ago
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