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Good Pain
Ok, a little bit of brag time. I finished the half in 2 hours and 24 minutes!! It's not great for a half marathon but it is better than I thought I would do and considering everything that has happened lately between a head injury, a breakup, some dep
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Trying to Still Push
This will be the first post from my phone, but I can feel my heart feeling edgy and sharp so it's time to get a little of this out. I am in the hotel, in the town, near the staring line of the race tomorrow and I'm feeling a little down. But with
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last by torrentdeheart 2 days ago
Truth, Sacred, and Healthy Relationships
True colors always emerge. It's simply too difficult to mask what lies beneath. If what lies beneath is ugly, it can always be worked upon. I strongly believe that. Getting to know A is like peeling back the layers. It's simple. What you see
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last by torrentdeheart 4 days ago
The Numbers
It has been 4 weeks since the break up and some would say that is too long to still be feeling the way that I do, On Saturday I will run 13.1 miles and some would say that is too far. It will be 7 days since my last cigarette and some runn
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The type of person you keep around.
I'm going to try to make this one quick. This week has been super stressful, and I've been trying not to whine about it. However, I just had anxiety building up more and more and more. Enter A… who proves himself yet again. He ask
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last by wombat 4 days ago
Seeing Psychosis Arrive Or an Enveloping Fog?
As much of a hell yesterday was I feel relatively normal today. A little grey around the edges but I think that is because I over slept, and the residual sadness still here. I decided to work from home today and get caught up on some other things in m
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last by callingyou 6 days ago
Mondays are an Emotional Bitch
What the hell!? I was supposed to be getting back on top this week. I don't know why Mondays are always so hard, but they are. Was it because I saw her coming out of the other side of the building when I was on my way back in from lunch? Was it beca
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last by torrentdeheart 5 days ago
The Reformation of Me
Well, I was about to hop on and write a huge post about this weekend and about the coming week, but I spent so much time with everyone else's posts and replies I should really go to bed. This is a good sign though, I feel lighter and more willing to co
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last by callingyou 7 days ago
Trials and Distances
My friend brought up the point, “Let's hope he doesn't have any side girls at school,” since A and I aren't official. I've said it before. I want A to see other girls. I want him to flirt. I want him to do whatever he needs to do. I
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last by callingyou 8 days ago
The Woods
Tomorrow I am headed out to my favorite place, the outdoors. It is going to be awesome and so free. I am feeling better tonight and I hope it's not just the three beers I put down while packing, I think it's more than that. I had her dogs' toys sitti
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last by torrentdeheart 2 days ago
I'm sorry you guys, I can't do it anymore.
I tried putting off this post to avoid possible judgement. However, I need to be honest and quit denying my feelings. As a lot of you know, I've blogged about many of my relationships on this site. Through the good, bad, and the ugly I've
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last by torrentdeheart 8 days ago
Bad News = Small Closure
Boy it has sure been a weird few days but there has been some unexpected, somewhat unnerving, closure - so that is nice I suppose. She dropped out of the race. It was one of my worst fears after I made her so “uncomfortable” and it happened.
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last by callingyou 15 days ago
UpdAte
Time for an update! A is still at school. Despite being super busy and far away, we have been staying in touch pretty well. In my last relationship it was way more clingy on both ends. Even though A and I don't have constant communication and b
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last by callingyou 8 days ago
Trying to Face the Rain
Today needs to start a little differently. I was just staring out the window watching it rain and waiting for the coffee to finish brewing, all the while thinking, “alright, let's push through this bitch of a gloomy day and get started.” F
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last by callingyou 16 days ago
No Treads on a Slick Decline
I want to know what the hell I did. No, I am not doing any more self blaming this time, I am … feeling a bit better? What the hell? Today was absolutely awful and I have no idea why. Nothing more has happened between her and I after thi
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last by callingyou 18 days ago
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