Things are getting quite busy in my neck of the woods. But things are good. I would say today has been my lowest point in November, and it's not very low at all. Things with the lady are better than they have ever been. She is funny, bea
last by callingyou 26 days ago
Coming out in a way...
Well, maybe this is what love is. I am sure she and I will be back together. I am sure she loves me. I never doubted it. There's just been other things to work out. So… if I marry a girl…this girl in particular some day, it will be as I
last by callingyou 14 days ago
"You let them toss you around like a piece of trash"
I remember writing a post on the day after my first really rough break up. I remember how raw I felt. It felt like every nerve in my body was being endlessly singed. I felt like I would never love anyone again. I felt like I was broken to the
last by callingyou about 1 month ago
I have an emotional hangover.
last by callingyou about 1 month ago
The Sadness is Still
There is still a definite lingering sadness in my life and I am not sure what to do about it. I know that it is part S.A.D. but it is getting a little old. I think I have just come to accept that it is how things are now. I haven't gone one wee
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last by callingyou about 1 month ago
“Are you saying I'm crazy, cause I am.” “All girls are crazy.” “Yes, there's just different types. Can you tell what mine is?” “Oh! Look at you, little guy. You missed it!” &l
last by callingyou about 1 month ago
Columbus DAy
So, where to begin? A's car had to be fixed today so I picked him up. My idea was to go for late breakfast, so that's what we did. Conversation flowed pretty easily though at first I was pretty nervous and didn't talk all that much. When it was
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last by torrentdeheart 2 months ago
Heart not so Deep
When I dream it's not of her anymore, but it's still her spirit. It's kind of hard to explain but it's not her face or her body but the person still sort of has her persona. It's a pretty good metaphor for my outlook right now actually. I miss
last by wombat 2 months ago
Feels right
Another level unlocked with A. Things are great. We are beginning to connect on more levels. I'm a pretty open person, but in relationships I shield myself a lot. I find no reason to shield myself with him. I can be completely candid and he is so unders
last by callingyou 2 months ago
Good Pain
Ok, a little bit of brag time. I finished the half in 2 hours and 24 minutes!! It's not great for a half marathon but it is better than I thought I would do and considering everything that has happened lately between a head injury, a breakup, some dep
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last by callingyou 2 months ago
Trying to Still Push
This will be the first post from my phone, but I can feel my heart feeling edgy and sharp so it's time to get a little of this out. I am in the hotel, in the town, near the staring line of the race tomorrow and I'm feeling a little down. But with
last by torrentdeheart 3 months ago
Truth, Sacred, and Healthy Relationships
True colors always emerge. It's simply too difficult to mask what lies beneath. If what lies beneath is ugly, it can always be worked upon. I strongly believe that. Getting to know A is like peeling back the layers. It's simple. What you see
last by callingyou 3 months ago
The Numbers
It has been 4 weeks since the break up and some would say that is too long to still be feeling the way that I do, On Saturday I will run 13.1 miles and some would say that is too far. It will be 7 days since my last cigarette and some runn
The type of person you keep around.
I'm going to try to make this one quick. This week has been super stressful, and I've been trying not to whine about it. However, I just had anxiety building up more and more and more. Enter A… who proves himself yet again. He ask
last by callingyou 2 months ago
Seeing Psychosis Arrive Or an Enveloping Fog?
As much of a hell yesterday was I feel relatively normal today. A little grey around the edges but I think that is because I over slept, and the residual sadness still here. I decided to work from home today and get caught up on some other things in m
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last by callingyou 3 months ago
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